SPFW - I was like you once - defending the J Dubs...... Take it from me - it is futile.... Its a man made religion plain and simple.
When i first came here I was still an elder with the JW helmet on, but in time reality set in.
It is a massive transition from being in to coming out - but me and Mrs Scotsman have no regrets whatsoever.
If you are happy being in, this is fine by me - but do not try an defend the org...